Eight months walking on the water

God is not a man, that he should lie; neither a son of man, that he should repent. Shall he say and not do? and shall he speak and not make it good?

Numbers 23:19

Last year, one week before I found out I was pregnant, I was alone at home when the phone rang. It was a woman who told me she was calling people to read the Bible. She asked me if she could read it for me, and I accepted. So she read Numbers 23:19:

 

God is not a man, that he should lie; neither a son of man, that he should repent. Shall he say and not do? and shall he speak and not make it good?

While I was hearing, I realized that God was talking to me through that woman. She told me God had lot of promisses for us, like a new life without pain, death and sadness. She asked me if I believed that. I told her yes, I believed. She didn´t take lot of my time. She only asked me if she could call me again another days for reading Bible and turned off. I felt I should keep that words in my heart.

One week later I discovered I was pregnant and six weeks later we found out our baby had acrania, what would become anencephaly and our so loved and wanted baby would die. It was a very difficult time, but that words from God helped us trust him and believe He could change that death sentence. Of course it wasn´t easy. Our dreams were destroyed and our hearts were broken. We felt we didn´t have forces to go on. We were paralized by fear. But God showed He was with us, and so we should not be afraid.

But now, says the Lord your Maker, O Jacob, and your life-giver, O Israel: have no fear, for I have taken up your cause; naming you by your name, I have made you mine.

When you go through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they will not go over you: when you go through the fire, you will not be burned; and the flame will have no power over you.

For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your saviour; I have given Egypt as a price for you, Ethiopia and Seba for you.

Because of your value in my eyes, you have been honoured, and loved by me; so I will give men for you, and peoples for your life.

Isaiah 43-1-4

I wanted God could tell me what He would do, if He really would heal Vitoria´s malformation and allow her to survive, or if I should prepare myseld to loose her. But He never told me what He would do. He told us it didn´t matter what happened, we would never be alone. And he told us we should walk on the water.

And straight away he made the disciples get into the boat and go before him to the other side, till he had sent the people away.

And after he had sent the people away, he went up into the mountain by himself for prayer: and when evening was come, he was there by himself.

But the boat was now in the middle of the sea, and was troubled by the waves: for the wind was against them.

And in the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea.

And when they saw him walking on the sea, they were troubled, saying, It is a spirit; and they gave cries of fear.

But straight away Jesus said to them, Take heart; it is I, have no fear.

And Peter, answering, said to him, Lord, if it is you, give me the order to come to you on the water.

And he said, Come. And Peter got out of the boat, and walking on the water, went to Jesus.

But when he saw the wind he was in fear and, starting to go down, he gave a cry, saying, Help, Lord.

And straight away Jesus put out his hand and took a grip of him, and said to him, O man of little faith, why were you in doubt?

And when they had got into the boat, the wind went down.

And those who were in the boat gave him worship, saying, Truly you are the Son of God.

Matthew 14:23-33

So during the rest of my pregnancy we walked peacefully on waters of faith, with Jesus in front of us. And we are still walking on waters during these eight months since Vitoria was born.

Thank you so much, Lord, for these eight months of Vitoria´s life. Thank you for sustain us. Without you, we would never had gone ahead. Thank you for always hear us when we asked help. Thank you because you always put out your hand and took us all the many times we were going down. Thank you for Vitoria´s life. Without you, she wouldn´t be with us. We glorify you, Jesus, for your Victory of Christ (Vitoria de Cristo).

The Lord takes care of me as his sheep; I will not be without any good thing.

He makes a resting-place for me in the green fields: he is my guide by the quiet waters.

He gives new life to my soul: he is my guide in the ways of righteousness because of his name.

Yes, though I go through the valley of deep shade, I will have no fear of evil; for you are with me, your rod and your support are my comfort.

You make ready a table for me in front of my haters: you put oil on my head; my cup is overflowing.

Truly, blessing and mercy will be with me all the days of my life; and I will have a place in the house of the Lord all my days.

Psalm 23